Since today comes once every few years, what better way to look back to four year ago? Since I didn't have a blog then, I don't remember what I was doing on 28th February, 2016, but I can remember the period. I was at home in Thane, having finished my course the previous December and applying to PhD programmes. I remember the BJP government had declared war on the left by slapping sedition charges on JNU students earlier that month. I was in Delhi when that happened and marched with the students of JNU, demanding the charges be revoked. The atmosphere was electric and I was so moved that I was in quarter of my mind to ditch my plan of going abroad for my PhD and apply to JNU. However, my enthusiasm started to wane after I returned to Mumbai and after a few weeks I had abandoned my plan.
That was an agonizing long summer. The demons in my head had started to sway but had broken into a dance. That would come in the monsoons, as I was recovering from second brush with dengue. But, looking back, the signs was there. Feelings of resentment towards one of my parents would suddenly bubble up. I suffered bouts of nerves before two English-language tests which were easy as could be. Since I fancied myself as a cool cucumber I was puzzled by my nervousness.
I have talked about what came later in bits and pieces on the blog. Suffice to say that my life has turned out exactly how I hoped it would four years ago. I have so much to be grateful for and I try not to take it for granted. I await the years to the next leap day with hope and anticipation.
That was an agonizing long summer. The demons in my head had started to sway but had broken into a dance. That would come in the monsoons, as I was recovering from second brush with dengue. But, looking back, the signs was there. Feelings of resentment towards one of my parents would suddenly bubble up. I suffered bouts of nerves before two English-language tests which were easy as could be. Since I fancied myself as a cool cucumber I was puzzled by my nervousness.
I have talked about what came later in bits and pieces on the blog. Suffice to say that my life has turned out exactly how I hoped it would four years ago. I have so much to be grateful for and I try not to take it for granted. I await the years to the next leap day with hope and anticipation.
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